Competitiveness

In a world that we live in today there certainly is a lot more competition around. People live in larger groups, fighting for that job or promotion, competing against each other. But I realized that I do have a larger problem with competitiveness...
Recently I came to realize that I see everything as a competition. I don't really know where it came from, probably in my childhood, because I remember always being that way.

I don't see anything wrong with wanting to be the best. I'm not saying that I am, but I am doing everything I can to be. At school, in sports, in my job, etc. - that's fine. But when I realized how much it bothers me when somebody overtakes me on the street, no matter if walking, on a bike or car I realized I have a problem.

I am also paranoid that my friends or even my own parents might like somebody else more than me. I know... I'm just weird that way...

Or am I? I have already stated in some of the previous posts how much the competition has expanded nowadays, how more people have more access to each other, to compare their work, more opportunities to get the job that you want. Surely, this is bound to create a more competitive attitude?

I find this thought a little comforting, however, I think that some of these competitiveness might be caused by a sense of insecurity. It is hard, with so many options, to pick who we really want to be and what part of us we want to work on the most, but it needs to be done, because in order to be truly best at something, one needs to focus on that one thing mostly. And I doubt that I am going to choose faster walking as my goal in life...